Sorrow, pain, anguish and the immense sense of loss. How do I explain this to anyone who does not own and live Spyderco? How can you explain to a 'normal' person that you wear a Spyderco like underwear?

I have had the Rescue as my daily carry knife for the past 12 years. It has been with me everywhere - in the shower, in bed, working, camping, hiking, fishing, partying, funerals, church, overseas, underwater...everywhere.
I have, at times (and without revealing too much here...) worn only the Rescue CLIPPED to my underwear (only around the house, of course)
The saddest part is, I cannot replace it: (a) For various reasons, I prefer the fit and shape of the original Rescue over the current model and (b) I can hardly afford a new one. Here in South Africa, you have to convert US Dollars to SA Rands at 1 to 8, then pay hefty import duties and then the importer, wholesaler and dealer slap their profits on. To pay 50%- 80% over the US MSRP is not uncommon. Consequently, you are fortunate to own ONE Spyderco - there are no collectors over here. And now mine is lost....
I could tell you about all the things that knife has done with me, how I had it engraved in a display of pride, how I almost ruined the blade with a stupid Lansky sharpener but then carefully nursed it back to almost factory edge with a slightly different technique than Sal demonstrates on the Sharpmaker, how the edges of the round hole eventually wear in and shape to your thumb, how the moulded FRN clip was just perfect, and, and, and ..... but all of that would be a book, not a post.
Very sadly yours
H